The moment I had been waiting for… The moment that I had prayed for… it had arrived. An ocean of never ending love!
It took longer than I thought, I fought harder with myself than ever before, and when my miracle arrived… it was ever so sweet!
My life was changed completely in one moment, in a blink of an eye. For so many years I yearned for this miracle, for this sweet child of mine. I prayed so much for a child that there were times I felt God’s ears grew deaf to me. It was in the waiting that I learned to trust God when I only had an ounce of trust to give. Those moments when God asks you to trust Him when all odds are against you, the moments when you have nothing more, the moments when you have to finally just… surrender.
After 6 years of trying, the last year before Gwyneth was conceived, I finally surrendered. As a matter of fact, it was right after the last Blog Post I made entitled “I Believe” that I conceived Gwyn. You need to read my blog on December 29th, 2012. Talk about a testimony and God working at that very moment! All of a sudden things began to fall into place and I didn’t even realize what was going on. God was directing my paths, making them straight and I was diving into the deepest part of the Ocean discovering wonderful things about life and it’s treasures. There were so many new things happening in my life, I wasn’t even focused on the problem, I was focused on the prize. Little did I know, I dived into a never ending Ocean of love!
On February 1st 2013, my husband and I found out we were pregnant! I seriously took 4 digital tests because I was so elated and afraid at the same time. The day before we found out I was pregnant, Chris’ grandmother Joan had passed away. She was a beautiful God fearing woman, with so much grace! She took me in as a grand-daughter so lovingly, I enjoyed spending the time I could with her when we visited Connecticut. God works in ways we can’t imagine. He was preparing us and even though it took what seemed to be a long time, I’m grateful that God waited till we were mature enough to handle a child. That doesn’t mean we know everything, there are so many new things to learn in this “parenthood”.
There are times I look at my daughter and I just Thank God for her, it brings me to tears to see a miracle in the flesh! Her sweet innocence, her little beautiful self, with so much spunk and spark! Let me tell you, if you read my previous blog post, I mention about a grand entrance… yes that definitely happened. Hahaha! She was a week late and I had to be induced, I was then in labor for 44 hours until she was forced to arrive. Definitely not my birth plan but an emergency c-section had to happen after her heart stopped on us 3 times during those 44 hours and I had to be given Oxygen each time. I was so tired and drained but it was the best thing to happen to me to see my precious baby girl!
She is a ball of fun, yes demanding at times but what child isn’t, as parents we just need to teach them the value of patience right? 🙂 There is so much responsibility on our shoulders as parents and I love learning with Chris and Gwyn. As a family unit we continue to grow and it’s only the beginning. In my previous post I stated “If you are asking God for something and it seems like time is running out, just BELIEVE. When that time does come, it will be like a sweet fragrance. It will pour out from the Heaven’s and the floodgates of God’s blessings will pour out over you.” We definitely received our “sweet fragrance”.
Another confirmation of our miracle was a scripture God gave me through my Holy Bible app, the day after we found out we were pregnant, the scripture is as follows: “Jesus said to her, Did I not tell you and promise you that if you would BELIEVE and rely on Me, you would see the glory of God?” – John 11:40 How awesome is that? God talks to us in so many ways! I am in awe of Him!
So it’s been a year and some months since my last post. If you feel you haven’t witnessed a miracle before, here is a picture of ours 🙂 (Gwyneth Joan at 6 Months) She is our Ocean of Love!
Much Love & many miracles to come your way!